LADIES AND GENTLEMEN,
This is your conscience speaking,
You are now entering the Realm of Louis.
Any resemblance to any characters mentioned here is PURELY ON PURPOSE.
Any attempt to steal or use any material from this blog WILL BE SHOT.
SURVIVORS WILL BE SHOT AGAIN!
Have a pleasant stay. Thank You!
It really has been an eventful 2008:
Breakup's
Makeup's
Starting all over again... Over and over and over
Old friends
New friends
New obligations
The fall & rise of the LEGENDARY Britney Spears
Crazy parties
Crazier friends
Even crazier ex-girlfriends'
Well now that 2009 is here, I'm back where it all began!
It's back to the old “Carpe Diem” days...
So watch out as I'm going to blaze the way for the rest of the years to come.
No more dark weather clouds in my skies
Now it's my turn to comeback...
Watch this space:
“THE WORLD'S GREATEST COMEBACK”
HAPPY HOLIDAYS!
Of course I know that everyone has problems. That's not what I'm complaining about.
What I'm whining about here is when does the distractions of the past actually finish to let you progress on to future distractions?
The long road ahead
To be fair and true, I have moved on and I'm defintely, without a doubt, loving where my life is heading. I'm at the right place in life now and loving every moment of it.
The only drawback is that there are major distractions in my past that will not let me go. Then again, I hope the past refuses to let me go rather than what I fear is I'm refusing to let go of the past.
Old distractions + New distractions = Very distracted mind
I thank myself for having a strong will and head to be able to continue breathing or I would have gone insane.
I'm actually not afraid of all these “problems, distractions, etc.” old or new. Really I'm not. I'm not afraid of most things, so what are problems to be feared of?
What I'm pissed off about is that there doesn't seem to be a limit to how much a person's problems can amount to and for one of the rare moments in my life, I actually slipped up.
I actually allowed the problems and distractions outside affect my own mental performance in camp. That is not how I live my life. And it's damn fucking fustrating!
Sure it's easy to say, “Oh you just have to learn to relax and ignore these problems,” OR “Just don't think about it,” OR Just focus on what is at hand...”
It's always easy to say. But when you are in this shit, you will only realize that those words really mean nothing. It's a much bigger task then it seems to be.
I can only think of one solution at the moment. And it's probably what I do best.
I just put on smile and let the world think that I'm not having any problems.
That's the only way I can be distracted for the distraction.
I'm looking for sunshine after the rain, but where the fuck is my sunshine?
The place I want to be
