Naughty Boy

Needs & Wants
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Friday, July 20, 2007

I need people to understand one thing. STOP. Yes, I said STOP

1. Thinking I don't know anything or what's going on

2. Stop telling me to act as if I don't know what's going on even when they know I do

You have no idea how hard of a role it is to play.

I wish to buy

1. ZARA Man's black "jeans" $129.00

2. New pair of shoes (white)

3. Topman shirts

4. New slippers

5. Handphone (Can be 2nd hand)

I want to buy lots of things. But I just can't. I can't afford it. And it sucks. The things I have now are not the kind of things I would like to claim ownership of. It doesn't represent who I am. But I don't have a choice. I have already used up my own personal reserves.

Damn. This sucks.

I don't give a flying cow... 10:17 AM

Selfish
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I can't believe you are so god damn selfish.

Whatever you want or need, I always try and get it done for you. Even if it means sacrificing things which are important to me just to get it done for you, I would.

I hardly even ask you for anything else. But when I do or I have something that needs to get done, you just can't help out.

A little respect from you AND your friends. Is that too much to ask for.

Ever wondered why I act the way I do sometimes? Cause it's fuckin fustrating that I try to help people out and they aren't thankful for it. It's like they expected only good things from me. And then dump all the bad things for me to figure out by myself.

I have been trying to change the way I act (And I have changed quite a bit on your advise) cause I think you are right. BUT it doesn't give you the right to not respect me.

If I find that in any case, all the time you have been lying to me with all the things you said to me. When instead you are only merely using me. You are goin to regret it.

It's NOT always the big things in life that people do that make a difference. It is also the small things that people do. You miss the small things, you end up missing the big things.

I always say. Everyone has a limit. DO NOT push me over my limit. I'm warning you.

I don't give a flying cow... 12:32 AM

Lines
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Ladies & Gentlemen (Prefably ladies ONLY)... I have come up with a new "line" to which my friends have keep laughing at...

Sharing a cab with lots of things on our laps (Sadly it was tennis gear that was on our laps and not girls) and I couldn't reach my tiny wallet stuck inside my ASS Pocket. So I proceeded to anounce in the entire cab... "Can someone pay first cause my wallet is stuck..." Apperently that's a funny sentence...

Though not as funny as a sentence a friend once said out loud... "WOW this oil is really oily!" [Try saying it in chinese. it's funnier]. And he wasn't trying to be funny at all.

DUHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH...... that is one of our favorite punchlines now. Sometimes we will change it to... "Wow this chili is really hot." Or "Wow this sun is really hot" or sth like tt...

I wonder sometimes the things people say...

Hey people out there... you have any kind of weird funny lines (like above) you ever heard b4? Tell me I wanna hear it and proceed on to laugh my yellow ass off...

I don't give a flying cow... 12:00 AM

I Will Survive
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Saturday, July 14, 2007

I don't think I'm a very difficult person. In fact I believe that I'm someone who doesn't really ask for much.

I don't really ask for much out of life, maybe just some respect from people, to be able to feel happy again on the inside... And probably most importantly, I guess to stop having people take advantage of the fact that I'm a very nice guy [Much as many of you try to deny it, you know it's true].

You see, friends are important to me. BUT close friends form one of the core basis of my life [Sorry Steve (Covey) but this is just who I am]. Needless to say if anyone of them is in some sort of trouble I will try to help them out as best I can...

One of the top problems always involve money. In the past many people always ask me to loan them some cash to get out of some of their own personal problems. And we are talking about cash amounting to more than $100's of dollars sometimes. I always end up lending them in good faith. Unfortunately for me, I have only been able to recover roughly 1/3 of the money I've lent out. Last time I counted, I think I have incurred a loss of at least $2,000 in money lent out to people and not yet returned.

Now it's sad that anyone of my friends who want to borrow from me I have to say no because of what happened in the past. I'm too afraid to lend money out now. Of course within the last 6 months I don't lend people money other than to those who really deserves to be lent to.

Some people have told me that sometimes I'm too nice to people that people often just take advantage of that fact and make use of me. I never thought for it to be true until of late whereby I finally realize what people have been trying to tell me.

Monetary issues aren't the only problem. I think I have resigned to fate that people only seek me out when they have problems and people don't believe them or they have no one to unload on. But when things finally look good for them, they stick to their own group of friends and literally kick me out of the circle until their next problem comes along.

Maybe it's because I always try and see the good in people no matter how bad they are. I never proclaimed myself to be the best person alive for I know I'm not. I know I'm not good at a lot of things but at least I don't boast about saying that I do.

I know my own limitations in life and after a long time, I think I have finally got around to working on making these limitations better.

I think after awhile, people tend to forget that I'm also a person. A human being who has his own set of problems and emotions to deal with.

Today, I have learnt that in life you have just got to be selfish. To be honest, I only restrict my "goodness" to a handful of people who really deserves it. I think that they are the ones who really deserves my generosity more than any others...

I think I really only trust these handful of people the most. The Rat of course being right at the top.

But at the end of the day it comes down to one decision. Am I willing to discard the person that I'm to be someone I'm not just to survive in this world?

I don't give a flying cow... 9:32 AM