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Do you believe in angels?
I do.
I believe that everybody has guardian angels watching over them. I believe that they are there to guide you in every journey you embark on. Be it when you breathe your first breath of life, to marrying your childhood sweetheart, to your last breath of life, to your journey to heaven.
You obviously can’t see them. But you most certainly can feel them, especially when you feel all alone in this world. Cause when you need them the most, they come into form via the 2 most important things a man can have in this world. LOVE and FRIENDS.
I believe in angels. Therefore I believe in love. And I believe in friendship.
Only a foolish man would think so. But if everybody’s head is screwed on the right way, then where would the fun and imagination in this world disappear to?
I have been the victim of believing in love and friends one too many times. And for a moment in time, I did stop believing in it. I just didn’t want to believe in angels anymore. For where was the angel when my “brother” was taken from me? Where was my angel when Jen left me? Where was the angel who was supposed to protect me and be by my side when I needed him/her the most? For that period of time, I gave up believing.
Boy oh boy how hard it is to attain the level of very confident, yet all it takes is less than 24 hours for it to be destroyed.
I’m going to admit it. I’m nowhere near the confidence I once had. But I’m also going to say that at least I’m no longer at the foot of the mountain. I have climbed up steadily and quickly. All thanks to the rope that was there yet I was too blind to see. My guardian angels were always there yet I just chose to turn my back on things and sat on my big ass thinking the world was ending just because mine was.
I ran away from the truth. I ran away from reality.
But after so much I realize one thing… I have guardian angels watching out for me everywhere. There’s not just one. There are plenty. You just have to open your eyes. Not all of them can be your angels for long, but if you know where to look they are right in front of you. Your true guardian angels.
“IRIS” is by far one of the best songs to be ever released to this world. Absolutely one of the best love songs produced, recorded, etc. The lead single from the soundtrack to “City of Angels” starring Meg Ryan and Nicholas Cage; a fantastically written movie.
Just listen to the song. Look at the lyrics.
Here’s a little extract of the lyrics:
"And I’d give up forever to touch you
’Cause I know that you feel me somehow
You’re the closest to heaven that I’ll ever be
And I don’t wanna go home right now
And all I can taste is this moment
And all I can breathe is your life
And sooner or later it’s over
I just don’t wanna miss you tonight
And I don’t want the world to see me
’Cause I don’t think that they’d understand
When everything’s made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am
And you can't fight the tears that ain't comin
'Or the moment of truth in your lies
When everything feels like the movies
Yeah you bleed just to know you're alive”
I may have lost someone who I really thought was my guardian angel. I may have lost the love of my life that still and will always be the love of my life. This I will admit.
But will there be a 3rd chance together? No. Once you let go of something so close to your heart, no matter how much you try to get it back together, things will never quite be the same.
I will however take the memories with me, for she will always have a place in my heart for all eternity. But memories is all there is to live upon. It’s the memories that spur me on. To believe that I may have lost her, but there’s someone new out there waiting for me.
I’m a free agent now.
Xiaodi. Thanks for everything. We work well for each other. And we’ll take each other’s secrets to the grave.
Never forget. LOVE & FRIENDSHIP. The beautiful
world. The beautiful language. The beautiful life.
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