Naughty Boy

"WRAPPED UP IN BOOKS"
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Saturday, November 08, 2008

I love books.

There, I said it. I love books.

Hard to tell but true, I may hate studying and all the crap that comes along with it. But when it comes to reading, it's one of my guilty pleasures.

Who said book lovers or... hell... who said book readers are “Nerds”! Yeah even skirt chasers can be avid book readers.

And when I say an avid book reader, I don't mean reading books about sex, dating or any of those bullcrap. I'm talking about real books here.

Anyways, this book is highly recommended and apperently so since it did win '2001 British Book of the Year'. Yeah I guess many of you guys have heard of it since it has been released for such a long time, but this book is seriously without a doubt:

HIGHLY RECOMMENDED!

“MAN AND BOY” by TONY PARSONS

Here's a little sypnosis (taken from http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Man_and_Boy_(book))

'Harry Silver is a successful television producer about to turn 30. He is happily married, has a 4 year old son and drives a convertible sports car. Then he spends the night with a colleague from work and his life falls apart; his wife leaves him and emigrates to Japan, he loses his job, he loses his father and he has to cope with being a single parent... While coping with the stress of being a single parent, he meets another woman at a coffee shop, a woman whom he as already met with her child...

Many writers and critics have praised “Man and Boy” for its portrayal of modern-day single parents. It also shows what a single parent has to go through including love, stress, worry, happiness and various emotions.
Many reviewers have said that it made them feel deeply sorry for the father and cry many a time before laughing out loud at the crude jokes and “what-everyone-thinks-but-doesn't-say” style of humor.'

Why do I like it though I'm not a parent, let alone a single parent (thankfully for those who knew my past know when I say thankfully I nearly thought I was going to be one of them) is that it really brings out real emotions. It's what millions of people go through everyday. Maybe not quite single parenting, but the emotions are pretty much quite similar.

And the real message in the book is what means the most to me.

“LOVE MEANS KNOWING WHEN TO LET GO”

I don't give a flying cow... 12:13 AM

"WHY DOES IT ALWAYS RAIN ON ME"
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Friday, November 07, 2008

I AM JUST SO SICK AND TIRED!

When does a person's problems actually stop?

Of course I know that everyone has problems. That's not what I'm complaining about.

What I'm whining about here is when does the distractions of the past actually finish to let you progress on to future distractions?

The long road ahead

To be fair and true, I have moved on and I'm defintely, without a doubt, loving where my life is heading. I'm at the right place in life now and loving every moment of it.

The only drawback is that there are major distractions in my past that will not let me go. Then again, I hope the past refuses to let me go rather than what I fear is I'm refusing to let go of the past.

Old distractions + New distractions = Very distracted mind

I thank myself for having a strong will and head to be able to continue breathing or I would have gone insane.

I'm actually not afraid of all these “problems, distractions, etc.” old or new. Really I'm not. I'm not afraid of most things, so what are problems to be feared of?

What I'm pissed off about is that there doesn't seem to be a limit to how much a person's problems can amount to and for one of the rare moments in my life, I actually slipped up.

I actually allowed the problems and distractions outside affect my own mental performance in camp. That is not how I live my life. And it's damn fucking fustrating!

Sure it's easy to say, “Oh you just have to learn to relax and ignore these problems,” OR “Just don't think about it,” OR Just focus on what is at hand...”

It's always easy to say. But when you are in this shit, you will only realize that those words really mean nothing. It's a much bigger task then it seems to be.

I can only think of one solution at the moment. And it's probably what I do best.
I just put on smile and let the world think that I'm not having any problems.

That's the only way I can be distracted for the distraction.